New Year?

huhu..new year is not good... i cant feel the happiness..i feel that there's no life..i feel happy just a minute cause i can see that the peoples are having gud time..and there's so many fireworks last night..just make me happy for a while..but then i felt sad again..thinking of things that happening on my life..makes me more sadder..i thought ill be so happy..but then im wrong.. sadness!sadness!..i just need to cheer up for this new year 2011..cause its not good if i did not smile..but its all fake..the smile on my face is fake..im smiling but behind my mind im still thinking and crying..huhu..why is it like this..not the same as last year :( last year still good and happy...but now i cant just really feel it..i feel like its just nothing..i feel so empty..im going crazy!while im walking on the road i was talking to myself?isnt that you called "CRAZY"?yeah still talking with myself cause im always alone and no one to talk to..so i just talk to myself ..im really crazy..insane..babo~shit.. hope this year is 2011 is good for me..hope ill be happy this year..i dont want to be sad again!.. cheer me up guys :((

One of my happiest memories on my 2010 that i will never ever forget

First of all,,its bcoz of beast..yep one of my happiest moment too is when i saw them(no not personal) :) i saw their concert on TV..started that day i start researching too bout them..bout the members the album and the songs..as the day passes im getting addicted to B2ST then i become i B2UTY :) proud to be~!!because started i became a b2uty i met a lot of new friends all over the world..thats why im very thankful of it!..im so happy!!


Then~there's the only one b2uty i become so close too~It's Lya (yet ive mentioned her here many tyms but just wanna share that she's been part of my unforgetable happiest moment on my 2010) ~i met her not knowing that were gonna be twins..lot of similarity we have..ahh >,< i know!i know!u know all bout her coz ive posted it here too.. cause just wanna scream to the world that i like her so much..i like her craziness..she's nice and cool.. but theres a problem...i always make her angry at me.. T_T im so bad.. now i know she's mad at me.. but twin please can u forgive me again?pls. pls. pls...huhu..u know what!?its killing me!sheesh..i cried bcoz of it ..i know im weird..but thats what i felt..bcoz youre so special to me,,thats why i cried..ur special..cause ur the only one from the other country that i got so much close too..so im saying sorry for all my wrong doings..forgive me..thats all..incase you really dont want to talk to me anymore always remember..im always here..even though im miles away from you...and remember that youve been a part of my life..eventhough its just 1 month ago b4 i know u..im still very thankful.. saranghae!! <3 DONT WANNA LOSE YOU!! :''( NO THIS IS NOT A LIE..ITS ALL FROM MY HEART..TRUE..~now i feel i little bit okay...cause i said it here now...

12.25.10 Merry Christmas To all!! :))

my christmas eve is good ~ ^_^ even though me and my cousin who only celebrated the christmas..my sister was sleeping and my mother is chatting with someone(i dunno who)..but its okay...i still enjoy my christmas eve,we do a countdown for christmas too~haha..we wait for 12:00am..we are seriously crazy while waiting for it to come..we video our countdown..so while waiting for 12am were dancing and etc. at the video..haha... and began to count 10....9...8...7...6....5....4....3...2...1 and say"MERRY CHRISTMAS" at 12 am :) and because were starving me and my cousin start to eat the foods..woah,..and we eat a lot of spaghetti!!haha...then our tummy began to ache haha..~then we do the "CHUBBY BUNNY" thingy(dangerous to play too there are already 2 people died because of chubby bunny)..

(not me.. :) its jei from youtube ^_^ i screen capture this while she's (she coz she's a girl..hakhak )playing chubby bunny)

u can put all the marshmallow u can,on ur  mouth without chewing it and u say the word "chubby bunny" after you put it on ur mouth,..its a challenge and ive seen it on youtube,,and then i found out its fun to do it..so i decided to do it on xmas..we buy lot of marshmallow!!and i put atleast 11 big marshmallow..ahh>,< it hurts my cheeks...but it was fun too~haha..but my tummy still aching..! LOL..

and i thought of not sleeping until morning..but my eyes cant do it anymore..so i just sleep at 3:oo am :)
hehe..thats all!~even though my christmas is just simple...but i still enjoyed it!! ^_^




MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!yeah..have a merry xmas everyone!im tired this day...my whole body is aching! :( but its worth it~ so i hope everyone is gonna be happy this christmas eve ^_^ dunno what to write ~ im just gonna write again after christmas..ill write here if my xmas is happy or not :)) ahh.. hope it will be happy ..haha..bye bye!have a merry christmas again b2uties and dnangels!! :))

BEAST

                                                                            D-NA


ahh .. if i have them on my christmas..i think it would be the happiest day of my life!!! *dreaming again*
haha... crazy!!..

Story Of the stupid life~

Im Jham-Jham,i'm just a nonsense creature here on the world..yeah i dont have any use T_T really..my family always mad at me,made me think that i have no use for the family~eh..dunno why..im always the one who got blame for the things i did not do,i also thought of escaping this house..and go somewhere else..always got depressed because of it,thats why i love being alone..and thats why i become a "emo" that time..but my sister hates emo..she want me to change..she forced..and i have nothin to do with it..since she's older than me i have nothing to do with it thats why i need to change..she wanted me to change the attitude of covering my eyes with bangs..and stop wearing all blacks~i also put eyeliner but my sister dont want it too..so yeah looks like i dont have freedom to do what i want in this world..its like im on a cage and im there pet~

of course im a loving sister and daughter thats why i just shut up with this happenings..ahh im so babo!..babo..babo..~
even my friends too are really depressing~so depressing..huhu..i just realized they dont love me~this is for lavinia~ :( okay i know now..sheesh.. =_= i can accept everything now..~

tired of crying for worthless things!!..tired of hurting..why should i cry?there so many friends out there who love me so much..

uhmm..to my 1st love too~who dump me up too~nahh~u make me feel nothing!!shit!i want to kill you!i even i risked my pride confessing you my true feelings!!..yeah..thats a little long time ago~i almost forget you!!!thanks for hurting me..~bcoz of u i become more lonely~make me feel nothing~and useless..you showed me how to be strong bcoz of those things!and thank you for that!!anyway thats long time ago so no need to talk bout it~u should die.. T_T

i always felt no one wants me..they always dumping me..im so nice..how could they do it??huhu!

My twin is still there ^_^ lya!!i love her so much..lol..we can be twin forever !!if she want .. lol..~yeah..she's been part of my everyday life :)
haha..i love the crazy wall post from her..she's so good..im really thankful cause i met her.. :)) makes me happy

and now im still continuing my nonsense life here on earth..of course need to enjoy this life..
i still keep on writing my own life in this world ^_^

so this is my stupid life now!

BEAST SECRET !

If I were ever to meet BEAST in person, I think I’d like to kneel on the floor and apologize. I’d like to apologize for being a horrible person. I admit I was one of those people that called BEAST worthless and recycled. I laughed at Doojoon when he was on Hot Brothers to audition for JYP. I laughed at Hyunseung for not making it into Big Bang. I laughed at Kikwang for not really being successful in Japan. I laughed at Yoseob for only being a back up dancer. I laughed at Dongwoon because I thought he was ugly. I laughed at Junhyung because Xing failed. And overall, I laughed at BEAST because I thought they had no talent and that they were worth nothing compared to all the other idols. But now, I’d like to sincerely apologize. I want to apologize because Doojoon is a great leader, Hyungseung is an amazing dancer, Kikwang is so adorable and modest, Dongwoon is hilarious, Yoseob has an incredible voice, and Junhyung is one of the fiercest rappers. So I’d like to humbly bow my head for being an anti, for being too judgmental. Because while I was hating on them, I realize that this group is probably one of the hardest working groups. They have to fight against people like me who had already judged them because of their pasts. They had to work harder to prove that they can be successful. And they taught me that perseverance really pays off. I want to thank BEAST for teaching me how to become a better person.




[not mine,just wanna share this,because this is soo sweet and very touching.thanks twin for posting this on B2UTY and the BEAST international group]


SO FOR THOSE HATERS OF BEAST I WANNA SAY STOP IT you just looking like a moron,dont hate them just love them :(( ,BEAST IS SO GOOD...*begging so hard*

HOW DID THE BEAST/B2ST CHANGE MY WHOLE LIFE?

yeah,as u can read on the title how did the beast change my whole life??yeah seriously they change my whole life.. before i was a "LADY GAGA" addict which they say "SATANIC" sorry for those GAGA lovers out there..but i really dont like her now..she's getting worse,i mean i really dont like her now..yeah u can consider me one of her haters now..i was addicted to her too before..so addict as in i cant stop listening to her song all day long..i can say i was her die hard fan before as in i can die for her just to see her on person..i was blind with what happening,so many people said shes a satanic.but really dont believe them before that GAGA is a satanic,i was mad before to those haters,and fortunately the beast came to my life made me realize many things,i almost forgot about lady gaga and realize that what she's doing is not good..i mean all her MV's as u can watch them you can say her MV's Should not be posted public cause so many children watch it,and its not good for them...and now i dont like listening to GAGA's song.. beast change my life,i really dont like them before i said to myself theyre not good,ahh >,< but as the time passes by i became i real B2UTY and im proud of it..beast is the only kpop group that made me realize things.."dont judge the book by its cover" :)) they caught my heart so fast,i really dont expect that i will be one of their die hard fans someday they taught me to love and not to judge people by their outer side,,and because of BEAST too,,i met a lot of friends or B2UTIES like me we all got so many similarity and very thankful cause i feel like im not the only one here, now i can feel so many people love me  too :) like i love them !!!!..

Maligayang Pagdating sa Aking Mumunting Mundo... ^^: ..JAMILLAH..

Maligayang Pagdating sa Aking Mumunting Mundo... ^^: ..JAMILLAH..: "Ang post ko na ito ay para sa aking cousin na si Jamillah Solanzo... Jamillah Si Jamillah A.K.A. Meme ay itinuturing ko bilang isang na..."

awuuu tenchuu naman ^^ makatouch yah.. :)

Happy Birthday to our rapper and joker JUN HYUNG OPPA!ehehe

yeah...Yong Jun Hyung Of Beast is now celebrating his 21st bday ^_^ wow..he doesnt looks like 21 yrs old..hehe..so young~wish him good health,good career and more bdays to come!i really wish BEAST will last longer..i love them so much!! ahh >,< jun hyung is one of my favorite on BEAST he's the coolest!yeah he's so cool,i love the way he rap! ;)) he's looks is cool too~waaaa...i wish i can see them in person sumday,ill be freaking crazy if ill see them..haha.. saranghaeyo jun hyung oppa!waaaaaaaa...you make me crazy!..dont mind the haters oppa ^_^ b2uties are here to support BEAST!! hwaiting!

here are some of yong jun hyung pictures! :)

aigoo~long time ago since the last time i wrote here

Eyoo!!happy ako sa life ko ngayon.i met so many friends.from vietnam,malaysia and indonesia,its because of BEAST/B2ST really thankful ^_^ coz they make me happy,they make laugh always!!i thought i was on heaven because of the happiness their bringing to me....and eto pa i got new twin!haha..named lya~we have so much similarity,so as of now she's the one i always talk with..she's so nice,cool we both love DONG WOON and MIKA,thats why we created a page on facebook "MIKAWOON" its MIKA+WOONIE = mikawoon!FTW..haha..we were seriously crazy about it,btw me and lya are the one who only knows bout the "MIKAWOON" thingy thats why we created a page to spread our VIRUS hahahaha!!and now! its spreading!waahh..hahaha.. they love LEE SU HOON(MIKA) and SON DONG WOON(WOONIE)
SARANGAHE TWIN!! <3 i love love love yoo so soo much..hahaha... hope we can be twins forever and ever like MIKAWOON!hahaha... the long lost twins..!!!


btw i have a sister too from VIETNAM hehe..not really sister..but we call each other SIS...her name is Nguyễn Thái Thạch Thảo hehe... hard to read eh?i have a hard time reading it too..haha...




ANYWAY FOR ALL THE B2UTIES OUT THERE!! FIGHTING!!!! <3 love you all so so much!!
BEAST HWAITING!!


JUN HYUNG,HYUN SEUNG,KI KWANG,YO SEOB,DOO JOON,DONG WOON FTW! <3

christmas!

I LOVE CHRISTMAS! :) 
it's 43 days to go before christmas.. ohhh the time is so damn quick! 
so damn excited about it.. weee... got so many plans on christmas!! haha..

NOVEMBER 1, 2010

its been a couple of days since i last wrote on my blog! cause maybe im busy?? no not that busy..hehe.. i dont know why but..maybe im just lazy to write blogs now... ?!? 


isusulat ko ngayon ung dapat na isusulat ko pa nung november 1 ^_^ wala lng kasi akong time eh.. ahmm .. nitatamad ako ee.. hehehe...


so last NOVEMBER 1, 2010 we visited our lolo and lola's grave.. we bring them flowers.. my sister buy it.. but since we have ORCHIDS on our front yard (my lola's orchid) so i decided to bring it to her .. cause its really for her.. i ask my sister if i can bring ORCHIDS she said, NO WE ALREADY BUY FLOWERS, i was suddenly get a bit disappointed by that time cause i really really want to bring my LOLA her flowers..so when were exactly leaving the house..i ran into our front yard and pick a flower.. my sister doesnt notice it, until we arrived on CEMETERY she said WHY DID I PICK THOSE FLOWERS? i said I JUST WANT TO BRING IT TO LOLA CAUSE ITS HER FLOWER my lola will definitely,,smiling on heaven because i bring her favorite FLOWER.. so my sister cant do anything bout it.. i have pick up atleast 10 flowers i did not notice it..until something came to my mind... i will gave 5 flowers for lola and 5 flowers for lolo.. cause each flowers has a meaning... it means ||| 1 flowers - I ||| 2nd flower -LOVE ||| 3rd flower -YOU ||| 4th flower - SO ||| 5th flower- MUCH ||| = I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ... ahww :')

I MISS MY LOLA AND LOLO :')

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween everyone!! ^_^ 


omg! im alone here :( and im scared! sheesh.. =.= quite so annoying.. they leave me alone here? im so scared here.. dunno what to do T_T im so bored!! 


If my mom finds out that..im still using the internet..she will surely get mad at me!


Anyweiz! :) tomorrow is nov. 1, 2010 its ALL SOUL's DAY ..


We will visit my lolo and lola's grave and i will bring them flowers ^_^ im missing them so much.. *sana wag magmulto* hahaha.. jk jk!!

OMG!nakakainis!! Tapos na pala ung He's Beautifu nung oct 22!!l!Shit,,di ko man lang napanood!!haisst!ngaun ko lng nalaman! :( really feel sad about it.. kainis naman kasi eh!pang tanghali pa kasi pasok ko!Hayysst!! huhuhuhu .. i really miss watching it :( maybe i will just buy DVD of He's beautiful..even if its language is korean :) i will definitely watch it..

 THE END :(

Kim Hyun Joong And Yoon Eun Hye Are soo cute!!! :)

arghh!so cute! >,< they are my idols.. i really like the smile of Kim Hyun Joong!! *fainting*

They Look good together ! haha.. so sweet : P they are so cute~haha

Yoon Eun Hye! CUTE!!!