Story Of the stupid life~

Im Jham-Jham,i'm just a nonsense creature here on the world..yeah i dont have any use T_T really..my family always mad at me,made me think that i have no use for the family~eh..dunno why..im always the one who got blame for the things i did not do,i also thought of escaping this house..and go somewhere else..always got depressed because of it,thats why i love being alone..and thats why i become a "emo" that time..but my sister hates emo..she want me to change..she forced..and i have nothin to do with it..since she's older than me i have nothing to do with it thats why i need to change..she wanted me to change the attitude of covering my eyes with bangs..and stop wearing all blacks~i also put eyeliner but my sister dont want it too..so yeah looks like i dont have freedom to do what i want in this world..its like im on a cage and im there pet~

of course im a loving sister and daughter thats why i just shut up with this happenings..ahh im so babo!..babo..babo..~
even my friends too are really depressing~so depressing..huhu..i just realized they dont love me~this is for lavinia~ :( okay i know now..sheesh.. =_= i can accept everything now..~

tired of crying for worthless things!!..tired of hurting..why should i cry?there so many friends out there who love me so much..

uhmm..to my 1st love too~who dump me up too~nahh~u make me feel nothing!!shit!i want to kill you!i even i risked my pride confessing you my true feelings!!..yeah..thats a little long time ago~i almost forget you!!!thanks for hurting me..~bcoz of u i become more lonely~make me feel nothing~and useless..you showed me how to be strong bcoz of those things!and thank you for that!!anyway thats long time ago so no need to talk bout it~u should die.. T_T

i always felt no one wants me..they always dumping me..im so nice..how could they do it??huhu!

My twin is still there ^_^ lya!!i love her so much..lol..we can be twin forever !!if she want .. lol..~yeah..she's been part of my everyday life :)
haha..i love the crazy wall post from her..she's so good..im really thankful cause i met her.. :)) makes me happy

and now im still continuing my nonsense life here on earth..of course need to enjoy this life..
i still keep on writing my own life in this world ^_^

so this is my stupid life now!